Thursday tidbits!

Thank God it's Thurrrrsday!

1. I honestly don't know what it is about Thursdays, I just love them.
2. Did I tell y'all I got that teaching position I was interviewing for in December? I got it and I'm just loving it! I'm so happy.
3. I'm currently reading "I do not come to you by chance" It's such a good book, I've been reading it for two days and I can't put it down.
4. I think I'm finally finding my place within the Lagos crowd, this is not to say I won't try new scenes once in a while but I've found safe spaces to have fun, be creative and just be.
5. Why don't people like valentines? In or out of a relationship I've always liked it. Last year I got my partner a watch; made us amazing candle lit dinner; it was great, but this year i'll be doing some DIY crafting etc. I will share.
6. Do you think some people are just born with a cheerful disposition? I mean I know personality traits are about 50% genetic but then could you in the same way others were naturally depressed?
7. Sometimes it seems that when guys suffer heartbreak they suffer it harder... do you agree?
8. I'm hopefully going to watch some live music tonight, I'm excited
9. Life is good. I'm happy, how are you?

P.s I know there are some comments on old posts i haven't replied I will do so now, I'm always here and I'm back to regular blogging :)

Love always,

Sabirah

9/11/12

The most memorable day of my life;
And I almost wasn't there to see it.
I made it with barely 3 hours to spare.
With smoke still hovering around the mountains;
Fancy autumn temperature all round.

12:45 am began it all,
A phone call started the events of the night;
One call with a piercing scream straight to my heart.
The words "My water just broke" kept echoing in my head.
This was not a drill. No, it was showtime!

We flew down Beverly Street;
Every light was gloriously green,
We were so excited.
We checked into delivery room 1,
The one we looked at on the tour.

They strapped all sorts of contraptions on your mum.
The nurses, bless their souls, were amazing!
So encouraging, as if to prepare us for what was coming.
And come, it did! The contractions were intense.
You were not going to make this easy.

7:30am with barely a wink of sleep,
And your grandma was even more nervous
Than we were.
So I held her gently as she wept,
Your other grandma was also with us, via the phone.

The sounds of Adele eased in from the background,
As we worked through the contractions;
Ever increasing in intensity.
Dr V came in to examine you,
And he told us our worst fears had come true.

"This baby is not coming out this way".
His words were as a dagger to my heart.
Peace be still, our hearts.
Tears were rolling in all corners of the room;
All then, all became a blur.

Signing releases, talking to the anesthesiologist;
And also to the surgery staff.
Next thing I knew, you guys were whisked into the OR.
I put on a paper gown, hair net and paper shoes.
My heart had since relocated to my mouth.

What was to happen?
Would everything be okay?
So many questions on our minds.
I tried not to panic because I knew...
I knew I had to be strong for everyone else.

Suddenly the nurse came in.
All was now set!
On the table your mother lay, cut open.
With the lights shining  down on her;
Preparing for your debut in the spotlight.

In a daze your mother was.
In a daze I also was!
And then at 1:23pm,
9/11/2012
Everything changed.

The cry that will forever remain in my heart and head
Rang out, piercing the anticipant air.
It was so sharp... so clear...
And yes indeed,
You were finally here!

The gladness in my heart could not be rivaled.
I carried you in my arms.
Here you were, finally;
With your cone-head full of hair.
Welcome home, our heaven-sent joy!

The nurses Oohed and Aahed as they cleaned you up.
Your mother was so exhausted,
But pleased that you had arrived!
Her faint words "I love you" came softly,
As she fell asleep.

Tiwalayo Seirra-Rayne J


9/11 has a completely new meaning for me now. On this day last year my friends welcomed a beautiful healthy baby girl into their lives. I can still remember the burst of emotions I felt that day and I can only imagine how they both felt. Above is a piece written by the proud daddy, edited by me. A little piece of that moment when their lives changed forever; I believe the piece really captures the excitement and emotions of that day. I'm so thankful for them both and our darling Tiwalayo.

Hope you enjoyed it!

Love always, 
Sabirah.

On Awkward First Dates

It's was the Partner and I's anniversary in November and it gave me quite a bit to think about! I'm still glad I said yes and especially glad that even after the most awkward of first dates we still gave it a shot :).

Let me tell you how it went. So we had been talking everyday on the phone for weeks, emails, bbm, Gchat and phone calls. You know that stage right when every breathing moment is spent in some kind of communication with the other? During our conversations we had talked about going out together and what our dates would be like. I made it very clear that when the time came, he couldn't just be like "let's hang" and  then I'd go over and watch movies or something. No, I wanted the works, or at least dinner + wine. Other than that though I left everything else up to him.

Unfortunately on the actual day of the first date, I fell ill. By noon that day fever and body aches were ravaging my body and at 1p.m. I finally called off our dinner date (I wonder if it would have been different if we had gone that day). I ended up being really ill for about 10 days which was not only exhausting but strange for me.

We were finally able to reschedule two weeks after the original date. He picked me up and we chatted lightly on our way to the restaurant, there was just a tad of stiffness in the air but I had anticipated that. He kept  staring at me (side-eye he still does lol) which made me a bit uncomfortable. We finally arrived at the restaurant, and things went OK, we ordered- I think I ordered lamb or something.

Sigh, there are so many things you don't take into account when you're not spending one-on-one time, I mean there is tons of body language to be processed. I couldn't stare back at him so I just awkwardly pushed my food around and muttered quiet replies. The conversation was halting but not terrible and overall dinner wasn't bad.

So here is where it got really awkward. I had decided that I wanted to go sleep over at my friend's place that night so told him there was no need to take me home. He insisted that he would take me to my friend's house which was a bit off the grid, another friend wanted to go so we picked her up (stay with me here...), we were all in the car and tried to make conversation but it wasn't really flowing. To worsen the situation, we were stuck in stand still traffic a 40min drive became 4hours (I'm not kidding). It was horrid. Homeboy was humming to some music and it was driving me nuts so I turned and faced the window till we finally reached our destination way past midnight.

We got out of the car and there was no hug, no kiss on the cheek just a mumbled goodbye. I couldn't believe it, the whole thing was so funny(strange) to me. We spoke a little the next day but it wasn't the same. I was so sad but I let it be for a while, slowly we got back to where we were, talked it all out and realised that we both had big expectations and forgot about the little details.

Our second date was a complete 180 turn. We had such a great time that the restaurant has become one of my favorites (virtual cookie for who can guess). Looking back I'm thankful that I gave it another shot, because the truth is that we are both very different in many ways and still have to work out the kinks from time to time, but in that difference, there is MAGIC and it is beautiful.

As I've said before, Baby you're worth the work!
Happy anniversary!

Yaay to second chances.

Are you one to give second chances? why or why not?

Love always,
Sabirah.

I'm bizzaaaaack!

Hello lovely people!

I'm back :). I hope you had an amazing holiday period like I did, even if you didn't, cheers we made it to 2013!
I'm excited to be blogging again, I have so much to say and share! I'll be starting off with a series "Remember December" (Nice ring to it huh?); just sharing what I got up to over the holiday period in general. I'll also be bringing "Thursday Tidbits" back because it was fun and lots of people seemed to like it.

From there i'll just go with the flow and see where we go. Funny when I started this blog I thought I'd be doing a lot of beauty posts and maybe some fashion, but it just didn't happen that way. What do you think? should I sneak in some beauty posts once in a while?

I'm off to send the gazillion emails I promised so many people, but I'll be back in the evening (internet permitting) to do the first "Remember December" post.

Hope your year got off to an amazing start, any fun resolutions?

As always,
Love, Sabirah