I have spent the last three hours crying my eyes out from worry and anxiety over many things I can't discuss here. It's been one thing or the other over the past couple of weeks and one last thing broke the proverbial camel's back.
About a month or two ago I was talking to my co-worker about how "I came here not knowing where I was going to live" but came anyway and she was like wow, your faith is strong. And you know, I blushed because I had never thought of it as an act of faith but in retrospect it was.
Last Sunday I was skyping with my friend Eresuyi (who by the way is such a huge blessing to me, God bless him) and I was discussing a problem with him, after laying down all the facts, pros, cons and analysed logic, all he said to me was "You have to be honest with yourself, do you have faith? Are you ready to put ALL of your trust in God" That shook me. Because I wasn't..
Skip to today...
After doing everything I could possibly do, tiring myself out from crying, I decided to pray. Isn't that something? Praying was the LAST thing I thought to do when everything was going wrong, yet I say that I believe that God is the one who plans and controls the entire universe. Praying was the last thing I thought to do. I'm surprised, because this reflects a dissonance between who I am saying I am and what my actions are.
"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God." Phil. 4:6
Be anxious for nothing.
Be anxious for nothing.
Be anxious for nothing.
I just received an email as I was typing this. The problem that broke the proverbial Camel's back? Solved. and on it's way to extinction.
Isn't that something?
Isn't Faith something?
Halleluyah! Faith = Trusting God. It has paid off. At this stage, Kleenex/Rose Tissue will start fighting over you for contract...Waterfall.
ReplyDeleteLOL That contract will be good oh.
DeleteOlorun o ni je ka ri oro ekun.
Thank you so, so much for this. I am actually going through a situation which only God can help me out of and I find my faith failing sometimes. Everytime I feel myself getting anxious, I pray for more faith (it really is very hard).
ReplyDeleteI'm so happy things worked out. Thanks for sharing, this helped me.
((hugs)) we gotta keep reminding ourselves.
DeleteI'm so glad, you're most welcome
God is faithful. Thank God! Good to know it's all resolved now...
ReplyDeletePhil 4:6 is my favorite verse in the bible.
ReplyDeleteGlad that everything worked out fine! I was freaking out few weeks ago about not having a place for when the boo comes and all that huge relocation stress...fast forward to 2wks since his arrival, we r all living happily in my Mom's tiny apartment, and bonding and growing. Still looking for an apartment but in HIS time, He will give me the right apartmnt.
ReplyDeleteHang in there strong mama! Our Daddy will provide ALL our needs according to HIS riches. :* :* and hugs!
Awww I'm so glad to hear it, there is a reason you are where you are right now, it will only make you stronger!
DeleteI always have you in my prayers!
Thanks for always being so encouraging! :* :*